no matter how hard it is..

..you have to be honest with yourself. you have to be fair to someone else.. and to yourself. because no matter how badly you want to just say "fuck it" and walk away, its always going to be in the back of your head and instead of saying "eff that" youre going to start questioning and asking yourself "what if." 

sometimes its worth the pain. you dont know where you going to be in the next few or six months.. you dont know if anythings going to happen, --or not happen. and although its a risk, is it a risk that your willing to take that you will be hurt in the end.. and that you will hurt someone else? but at the same time you cant deny whats there. i think i know what needs to be done. ---what happens now will have a big impact on the decision that you have to make later on. no matter what though, im not going to be selfish and ask you to stay because of me.